Rainbows and Moonlight..

eegads. It has been a long while since I've done one of these. So much, so so so much is going on these days. Started back to school this semester. Sitting in a classroom when you've been out of school for like... 12 years... is not an easy thing to do. and my court case regarding my son is progressing... slowly but surely. If things continue the way they are, I should have him home around Christmas. Life is just busy busy busy these days. I hardly even get to see Mark, except in passing unless I wait up until midnight or so. But it's definitely worth waiting up for. :)
Eh, so much I want to say, don't know where to start. So I don't think I will. Just leave it at this for a while.

Way, way WAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY too long since I have posted. Some of that is due to lack of access to the internet. Some of that is due to my happily newly-wedded blissful state. I got married March 24 to an absolutely wonderful guy. Court cases with my parents still going on over my oldest son. I got to see him this past weekend, so that was loads of fun. Hopefully I'll get more posting time sometime soon. for now I've gotta jet. Hubby is waiting. Miaow!

My babies are here! ok, not babies, but you know what I mean. I've been so nervous/excited/anxious/worried/stressed/.... you name it. but today arrived, all is going well, and I am SO incredibly happy!
As if that weren't enough, Mark proposed, I accepted, and he bought me a dress, an OMGITSSOGORGEOUSWAITTILLIGETPICS wedding dress. :) :) :) Giddy is the heart, happy is smile, but alas, I must go and sleep for a while!

One of my favorites, from Rudyard Kipling... just wanted to share




If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run --
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!




I've been in quite a poetic mood lately.. but I've done more posting on Myspace than on here, so, if you want a glimpse, check out the blog there and let me know what you think. MySpace

Guy at work.. kinda sorta been crushing on for a while. Problem? he had a gf... until about a week and a half ago... So yeah, drinks last night.. pool tonight... who knows? We'll just see how it goes. Not getting hopes up, or letting down defenses just quite yet. But we'll see.

I only cry at night
When the lights are out
And the world isn't looking

I only cry at night
When the sun is hidden from view
And the moon isn't peeking

I only cry at night
When I'm in my room
And the shadows hide me

I only cry at night
When the tears don't count
Cause the pillow catches them

I only cry at night
When the stars are winking
And I am thinking

I only cry at night
Cause that is when the lonely hits
And there's noone there

Are you supposed to chew oatmeal? Or just swallow it...

This was on someone's Myspace... it was just too good to pass up. Advice given, and taken:

if someone wants u

If someone wants you, nothing can keep them away.
If they don't want you, nothing can make them stay.
Stop making excuses for someone and their behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for someone before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because they were not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't be friends."

A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like they are stringing you along, then they probably are.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid someone who has a bunch of children by a bunch of different people. They didn't marry them when they got pregnant, Why would they treat you any differently? (also, don't try to get them pregnant or get pregnant to try to make them stay or marry you, it's not right and it doesn't work, may even make the situation worse)

Always have your own set of friends separate from theirs.

Maintain boundaries in how they treat you. If something bothers you, speak up.


Never let them know everything.
They will use it against you later. You cannot change human behavior/nature.
Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make them feel they are more important than you are... even if they have more education or a better job. Do not make them into a quasi-god. They are just a person, nothing more nothing less. We all put our pants on one leg at a time.
Never let them define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's mate.
If they cheated with you, they'll cheat on you.

They will only treat you the way you ALLOW them to treat you.
All men/women are NOT sorry.

You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.


Dating is fun...even if they don't turn out to be Mr./Ms. Right.
Make them miss you sometimes...when they always know where you are, and your always readily available to them - they will take it for granted.

Never co-sign for them and never move in with their parent's either.

Don't fully commit to someone who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep them in your radar but get to know others.


Share this with your friends on your list..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink their choices, and another prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Propping my feet on the wall while Im at the comp. There are now footprints.. or maybe I should just clean my feet more often :p

So, okay, kinda bored tonight. The game doesn't really interest me right now, too many idiots online, hardly any of my friends. Chattin with a few folks over IM, but..eh... So, I decided to google "bored".. and this is what I came up with:

http://www.snapbubbles.com/

http://www.getannoyed.com/

http://www.staregame.com/

http://www.writebackwards.com/

http://www.mysticalball.com/

http://www.lemonadegame.com/

ok, I think I'll leave you with those, but checkout bored.com if you ever hit this point.